I was sitting at home trying to listen to the Sunday morning session on easter Sunday Elder Soares spoke, during the beginning of his talk my mind was opened up to remembering a talk given in October 2006 Saturday afternoon session of general conference given by the late Elder Joseph B Worthlin, entitled “Sunday will come” in which he shares a beautiful testimony about the atonement, death and resurrection of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. While pondering that amazingly beautiful talk, my mind was opened and I received the following revelation about what happened on my mission with Allison in the Foothill Ranch ward (my third area). The talk was given after I received the letter that eventually caused me to end our relationship due to her actions, but during the time I spend figuring out what to do. The experience with her poor actions and the pain they caused me was in essence my gethsemane and the remaining three months I served in that area were my personal time in the tomb. My being transferred from that area after was in essence my resurrection as a new and different/better missionary.
The remaining 12 months of my mission were in fact an extremely different experience for me, it was like I had my eyes opened and my focus and drive were increased. The work was hastened amazingly and I had some (mostly) amazing companions and other missionaries to serve around. It felt like my mind was cleared and I recognized certain things that I needed to clear up within my soul with the help of President Garner (a sweet experience in and of itself).
The revelation the Lord revealed to me was indeed a gift from him and felt like he was ready for me to start the next chapter in my life. Another amazing blessing from this experience is that I finally understood why I was supposed to go through what I did with Allison and the pain it caused me. It was meant to provide me with a greater understanding of the power of the Lord’s Atoning sacrifice and how it can redeem us from everything.
The experience allowed my heart and soul to completely heal from the damages that it caused me. Now I can say without a shadow of a doubt that I am 100% completely over Allison and the pain she caused me and have gained a greater appreciation for the experiences I had while we were together.
The experience all started when I was working security at a Jazz game the Friday before easter. I started chatting with a good friend of mine named Holly. We started talking about our family easter plans and how we were both going to spend time with our respective families. When I asked her a simple question about where her family lived, when she answered North Ogden I told her I dated a girl that lived in North Ogden before my mission. She asked what her name was I told her which she responded that she knew her and were friends with their family. This lead to her asking me to tell her the whole story about Allison and myself, or as I called the “Allison Saga!” The whole time she kept saying oh my gosh, to which I reaponded, theres more 😄. After I finished the whole story she said oh my gosh I’m so sorry to hear that happened to you. She then told me that Allison has recently divorced, which kind of made me feel sad for her. Though she did what she did to me I still didn’t wish that to happen to her.
The lord is so amazing and though we are uncertain of why things happen to us the way they do at times it’s not up to us to wonder why, it’s up to us to try and learn what we can and have faith that in time things will be made clear to us.
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